i’m slowly (or maybe not so slowly) coming to the realization that i can’t even understand the orientation and disposition of own heart. what do i desire? where do my affections lie? what to do with ambiguous feelings? the overall sentiment of the song the modern march by run kid run well captures where i am [...]
Posts Tagged as ‘out with the old’
April 15, 2008
scarce conviction
One of the first passages I encountered when I came to faith (i.e. only three years ago haha) was Hebrews 11. Time and again I try to process the gravitas of the phrase “conviction of things not seen.” Sadly, I can’t say that this conviction is very strong for me. With the old self ever [...]
April 15, 2008
writhing
writhing i push.
i refuse you, i abandon you.
i run, trying to make my own light.
but this night is dead and dark.
i cry, strained.
with false hope
my voice returns to me,
snickering, sniveling.
he lies to me,
tells me what i want to hear.
i expel words of malice
with glee.
trembling hands and a desperate heart.
the same pattern,
the same weeds.
my bones rot…
i [...]
